i've been dying since you died

till we meet again

you were the sun to my sky,

only way my mornings smiled

from the laughter in the fields,

to the nights we ran in the wild.

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now you’ve left my world grey

the sun doesn’t shine anymore

i constantly lose track of time

searching and screaming for an open door.

.

the door that would lead me to you,

away from this never-ending torment

i search for you and i roar for you,

and the wound grows deeper every moment.

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your death was a one day show,

i die every pathetic day

how many deaths will it take, my love

to finally see your stupid face again?

.

when that day finally comes

and death really finds me right

i hope to see you standing there

to hold me, ending this miserable night.

I finished AOT last night, or we can say it finished me. As i write this with swollen eyes and my tears soaked face, i still haven’t processed how painful it was. I still haven’t got the space of mind and the time to make an actual post, my drafts are filled with articles and poems i want to post. I wanted to post this one. Not my best poem but i felt every line of it while writing. and sorry if anyone got the spoilers from this post, my deepest apologies. Thank you, love you.